Rethinking Things

After yesterday's entry, I decided I needed an attitude adjustment. Last night my host mom invited me out for tapas as a farewell thing for me and Conor and some of his friends. I didn't really want to go because 1, i thought i would be awkward and 2. I had a rough night the evening before and wanted to turn in early. After consulting Will and Andy who told me to basically suck it up, bite the bullet, and get over it, I decided they were absolutely right. In the last few months the one thing I have come to embrace is taking more risks despite my fears of what may happen as a result of stepping outside of my comfort zone. I knew that I was the one responsible for feeling tense in my house and therefore i had the power to change my my outlook on the situation, so I decided to go with it. We ended up staying out 'til 4 am and I really enjoyed myself. There were time when I was bored, but all in all I know I made the right decision in going. For Conor and his friends it was their last evening in Leon so they were pretty sad naturally but had no problem "aproveching" the night :) We began with tapas, had dinner at my faaaaaavorite pizza place, La Competencia, and spent the rest of the evening dancing the night away. I was pretty tired throughout and wasn't planning on staying out late and dancing, but I figured it would be good family therapy and a chance for me to make good with everyone. Things seem to be much better at this point. I know I don't have much time left, but I want to make sure they are enjoyable.